My Grandfather, Raymond Ferguson, passed away on June 10th, 2009. Today is his funeral. The past few days have been hard, and I've gone through them feeling like a zombie...just sort of numb. I have a hard time getting to sleep even though I am exhausted, and when I wake up I don't feel rested. I'm just kind of stunned, like I'm on autopilot. I imagine everyone else in the family feels that way too. I've never lost anyone close to me before this, so I'm not sure how to get through it. I imagine today will be the toughest day yet for all of us. I'm so thankful that I have such a big and loving family though - so far we've been getting through this together. Today will be te end though...it will be final. Even though as soon as I saw Gramp of Wednesday just after he had passed away, I knew his soul was gone. His body was just an empty shell. It didn't really look like him. I think in a way that made it easier for me to see him. I'm Christian, so I truly believe he's gone to Heaven. His suffering is done, and he's gone on. There are so many good times to remember too. He was such a goof! Always joking around and raising heck with us grandkids. Att he viewings yesterday we all shared stories about him, and I think that really helped. He's leaving behind quite a legacy. So many awesome stories that he's told us. I'm especially grateful to have Rob when it comes to that. Gramp told him stories that he had never told anyone else. Him and Rob would sit there for hours just talking. They were very much the same. So now Rob has a whole bunch of Gramp's stories, and he has a good memory, so they will live on.
Well, I guess I'd better go get showered and ready, and get Rob up to do the same. I imagine I'll post more about Gramp later, maybe some of his stoires. I'm working on a page in my art journal for him, so maybe I'll scan that in and post it when I get it done.
I love you Gramp. I hope you're with us in spirit today. We all love you and miss you very much.
We started new shifts at work last week, and I'm super happy to be back into a 10 hour shift! I do find it a little long, but I'll get used to it. I have lots of crafty things here at my desk, and in orbit around me. haha. Working from home has been so fantastic. I can work on whatever I want, without having to tote stuff to work. For the past couple of months I've been doing a lot of paper crafts, or mail art. Artist Trading Cards (ATCs), inchies, and I just started my first real art journal, and I'm thining about trying chunkies and rolos. All altered, mixed-meadia, painted, markered, etc. I've even thrown in some scrapbooking here and there. Leaves me very little time to tinker on the interweb, hence why I haven't posted much here, why I haven't uploaded pics to Flickr in forever, and why my Etsy shops aren't being updated as much as they should. I wish there were just more hours in the day!
Funny that Rob accidentally posted a post to my site instead of his, given it's content. And on the same day I decided I really need to update AllJenn.com. That's eerie.
So, on to my post.
Why is catnip legal?
I know, it's funny, but really, there are all these regulations and laws controlling drug use in human beings, but we an freely buy catnip, an obvious hallucinogen (Arty lays on his back with his paws waving in front of his face when he's stoned on catnip...I know he's seeing swirling colors), and give it to our pets. For Luna, its an aggressor, she'll pick a fight with anyone when she's free based some 'nip.
*ponder*
Arty is the best cat ever. If you give him something and tell him it's edible, he'll eat it dammit. One time he had great fun eating an olive. Anyways, Rob just gave him Pop Rocks, you know, that candy that snap crackles and pops in your mouth? Arty damn well ate it too! Mommie's little piggy trooper.
I went to Dee's last night to craft, picked up Rob when he was done work at 12:30, then came home to find a message on my phone saying I needed to go in then and there to get my stuff because I'd be working from home today. Well, I zipped over there, got most of my junk (sans monitor, but it's not like we don't have 3 dozen of those laying around here anyways), and set it all up this morning. Talk about short notice. There were a couple glitches, but we got that all worked out, and my shift tonight has gone smoothly thus far. I'm only 40 minutes away from being done! Yipee! I'm friggin tired. I still haven't adjusted from the NYC schedule back to my 6:30pm - 3am work schedule. Bleh.
Arty very much enjoyed having me home tonight. It took him until 9:30 to actually get out of bed and realize I was here. From then on out, I had to hold him. He got down a couple of times, but it wasn't long before he was back. He's mommy's little snugglebum. He was pretty upset when I went to NYC and left him for 5 days. He slept in my spot in the bed, right up against the pillow, and he moped around the house. When I got home, I came in the back door and yelled "Mommie's home!!!", and he came running full out. hehehhe So ya, back to tonight, I was holding him and he was asleep, when I had a call come in, so I started to pick him up to put him on the floor, and he clung right on to me, and his look said "Oh no Mommy! Please please don't put me down! We's snugglin'!" OMG, it was so cute. He's such a little baby with me. *sniffle*
